February 2013
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I admit, I over think. I over analyze. I take what could be something simple and mess enough with it in my convoluted mind so that it ends up being extremely and intricately complicated, to me at least.
Life shouldn’t have to be this complicated. In fact, life is startlingly simple. It is just such a flaw in some people, myself included, that I make things complex enough to be problems when...
December 2012
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It hurts my heart so much to think that sometimes,...
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It's early morning. The sky is still dark with...
It hurts my heart.
Not that you’re with her.
Just the fact that we’ve always been strangers and after all this time, I’m still that random girl pining from afar.
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It's been a long while.
Since I’ve last posted in my personal blog. I’ve already preempted the third year of college being one of the roughest, hardest and most time consuming, so I already started queuing posts on my main blog around once a day, occasionally going on there to do a mass reblog once in a blue moon.
Sadly, that leaves my personal blog and more importantly, my writings neglected.
I’ve...
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I wish it were easy to flip off feelings that were...
October 2012
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11:22PM
The streets are quiet when it nears midnight.
The only sounds I hear are the clicks of the keys on the keyboard and the quiet hum of the fan as it spins on it’s fastest setting.
I look down and see the damage I’ve done.
Ugly.
Painful.
Hurtful.
Words.
All scribbled on my body after reaching for the cutter and failing more than once to produce a single scar. Be it the fear holding...
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lingering.
People say that feelings fade over time; that with the passage of it, the feelings are eventually pushed away and forgotten.
People forget the true power that feelings have. They underestimate how much strength feelings actually hold upon the human conscience.
Feelings don’t actually fade over time.
They are pushed to the edge of your conscience, muted and quiet. They leave you...
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on waking up.
Waking up early was a choice.
I could watch the sun rise and streak the sky beautiful while reading a novel, steaming cup of coffee in hand.
I’d write down snatches of words that sailed past before the hurricane of thoughts blew them away.
Then I’d dwell in the stillness of the morning and just, finally, breathe.
September 2012
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Thinking.
I’ve always wondered if social superstitions were true.
The whole random sneezing, biting your lip, tripping over seemingly nothing; I’ve always thought that if these things occurred, it meant that someone was thinking of you.
I suppose if it were actually true, the entire population would be in constant disarray. And the person I would be thinking about the most would have been more...
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on scapes and goats.
A simple comment on a Facebook status can change the entire tone of the conversation.
I’ve noticed it more and more. People have this ridiculous habit of infecting others with the bad, miserable mood they have. The correct term, I suppose, is using another person as a scapegoat.
You’re in a frustrated, annoyed, irritated, generally bad mood. You use another person as an outlet,...
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August 22nd, Wednesday
When you meet someone new, there is usually a split second decision made by your brain that you don’t notice until you’ve experienced the aftershock of that decision; you decide whether or not this person is attractive to you, and from then on, you formulate your behavior to match said previous decision.
Admittedly, meeting people and basing your behavior in relation to how attractive...
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August 8th, A Wednesday
I saw you today, Cas.
I won’t deny that old habits die very hard and that I was looking for any sign of your presence earlier when I had initially arrived, before my first class of the day.
My earlier search amounted only to a vague feeling of disappointment because really, I am getting better at this process of letting go.
Letting go of the unrealistic fool’s hope that you could...
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"Is it impossible for boys and girls to be just...
In my case, that could be my impossible dream. I hope it isn’t but I don’t have the best of track records regarding my affections towards guys. I guess I manage to develop a slight crush on the guys I am friends with at least once.
It’s a sad, pathetic habit of mine which I am constantly trying to eradicate.
Extra emphasis on the word “trying”.
It feels rather...
May 2012
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Edmonton Sherlockian Summer Meet Up →
missingmymind:
You know you waaaaant to! Being held July 7th, at some park…. somewhere in the city, suggestions are awesome!
In case you wanted to go, dear friend, as you DO live in the area.
dendenmushii asked: But, you know, at least you aren't being all stalker-like and stuff even in the midst of your feelings. That, BiP, is a very strong thing to resist. You are brave, and you have the inner strength to stay sane even when your head is whirling around in all these feels for all these people. That's what's good about you, and no, you aren't sad or pathetic. We just have the tendency...
dendenmushii asked: Darlingggg. It didn't show up in my tag because Tumblr is a bitch, so I decided to hop over to your Tumblr. :( Well, all I can say is that you're pretty sensitive to that partly because you haven't had a relationship like that and also because you really, really, REALLY want to try being in one. You're a true romantic, in every sense of the word. You know what you want in a...
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I've never had a relationship in all the years of...
So, I have problems.
Does this make me extremely sad or just pathetic?
Maybe both?
A yearning for a relationship so badly that I perceive even the most friendly actions as more than they are, over-thinking them and reading into them to the point of exaggerated infatuation that probably isn’t even real, perhaps?
I really have problems.
Dendenmushii, I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.
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Anonymous asked: Are you going to "The Beatles: The Lost Concert" movie premier in a few weeks?
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deaf. dumb. blind.
I’m often accused of being deaf by my mother.
It occurs when I listen to music on my cell phone with both buds of the earphone stuck in. The music all too often drowns out everything else; the sound of classic oldies music playing in the car, the noisy background of cars and people on the jeepney during a commute, multiple conversations around me in whatever place I choose to reside in, and...
April 2012
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In Retrospect; Parents.
Today, my parents had a fight, although it was mostly my father getting angry at my mom over something incredibly petty. Just because something didn’t go his was exactly as he wanted, he reacted like a child and literally forbade my mother from coming into their room for the entire day, until now.
My heart is hurting so much for my mother; partly out of sympathy for having to deal with such...
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“The average person is always curious as to why someone would want to be a night...”
– Dan Hajducky (via likeaduckinwater)
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Parents, man.
Why can’t you just get it done? Your dad always does what you ask of him; it’s considered done. Why can’t you be the same?
News flash, mother. I am not my father. Neither is my brother.
I know that I am not the first teenager to experience this. Having to live up to unrealistic expectations, having to deal with overbearing parents about how high they want you to jump and you...
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I cannot comprehend, cannot even describe; I feel...
So yeah, I just watched The Avengers.
Pretty sure it’ll take a lot to top that movie in a while.
My little, fangirling, geek of a heart is choking and dying a slow death of happiness.
To avoid spoiling, I’m just going to stop now.
:D
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When a friend is mad over something incredibly...
Since when did I ever like him? I admit, I was attracted to him when I first met him but he’s was strictly in the friend zone up until the first time he was mad at me.
Is this truly infatuation or attraction forced out into the open?
Aren’t they the same?
The friend zone has been breached, I repeat, the friend zone has been breached.
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Watching We Got Married (a Korean reality show wherein celebrities are paired up together to form “married couples” whose interactions and relationship developments are captured on screen) and just getting bipolar over Khuntoria.
Yes, I do realize they are all but over since last year but I can’t help but watch each of their episodes and just bounce between complete giddiness...
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I wish I had a friend I could fully trust.
Who wasn’t miles and miles away in Canada.
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There are those moments where you wake up in the...
My period is long over due. Oh.
Damn hormones.
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A Letter to Mr. Right
Dear Mr. Right,
Wherever you are, whoever you are, I hope this reaches you. I’m going to be glad, oh so very glad the day we finally meet. But before that, I’d like you to know a few things.
I am not searching for you, nor am I expecting you to be searching for me.
This isn’t some convoluted romantic film where I look for you and vice versa. It won’t happen just like in the movies wherein we...
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angelaprongs:
I want to find a book that I just can’t put down.
I haven’t been able to really enjoy a novel in a long time. I just read Room and I couldn’t close it, it was captivating and thought-provoking and when I set it down I was still in the story and I need another book like that. I miss that feeling so much. I’ve been so busy and reading classic literature for school that just doesn’t...
March 2012
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“We were the people who were not in the papers. We lived in the blank white...”
– Margaret Atwood, The Handmaid’s Tale (via booksquotesandreviews)
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Never be bullied into silence. Never allow...
This quote means EVERYTHING to me, for reasons that I cannot expound online. Reasons that I rarely speak of, reasons that I rarely think of; it’s an issue quite delicate and just the right amount of complicated for me to push it into the deepest recesses of my mind but not outright ignoring it.
It is my proverbial pink elephant.
Just in the peripherals of my thoughts, never intruding but...
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Habit: People watching out of interest in human...
chickenshit asked: "Dana C.". is that your rapper name?
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Watchconorbennett:
Trailer for the upcoming documentary “Bully”, which will be released on March 30th.
This trailer just made me teary eyed. STAND UP FOR THE SILENT.
January 2012
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For Denise M.; So long, but not farewell.
The hours to your leaving are an ominous countdown that beats hard upon my heart.
In all the months of my knowledge of your departure, I have not once paused to dwell too deeply upon information that is breaking, if it has not already broken, my heart.
I have shed tears in the moments wherein there is a lull in being busy. Those moments of nothing are the worst for me. It leaves space for my...
December 2011
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geekysundae asked: Agreeing with dendenmushii.. This theme is gorgeous ♥
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dendenmushii asked: YOUR BLOG IS SO PRETTY * A* ABUBUBUBU. Following you BiP~
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November 2011
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“The answer is dreams. Dreaming on and on. Entering the world of dreams and never...”
– Haruki Murakami (via misswallflower)
October 2011
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“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write,...”
– Graham Greene (via misswallflower)
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